So this is what I did waking up one starless, dolor-filled night- I looked into the sky and words trickled down my mind and then gushed forth as a result of extreme weight of pressure of autophobia. Well, maybe of losing one person very soon. I wrote,
Just like the stars were high up in the sky yet that however they twinkle tonight they will be washed out from the face of the sky by the morning sun, rushing in with its might and brightness into the skies and pushing out everything away with its marvellous light you will be gone. Gone when reality finally dawns, when fear becomes possibilities and when love gives way to giving up for the best.
Two months. Why was it just two years that I had with you? How fast did time fly, did time actually catch an airplane or did time simply make a fool of me? How was it that today I think of letting you go very soon but that exactly a year ago I thought you were mine? I wonder Why and Why and Why. The question playing and replaying over and over again, swirling round and round as if an excited tweeting bird.
But why?
And I knew why?
Did I?
For sure?
Was I doing right?
Or maybe were we doing it right?
Just like the stars and the moon that I would not even be able to catch a glimpse of when the garish sun creeps in, I will be gone out of your life and you from mine but just like the stars and the moon that always remain right there in the sky even when all the powerful light reigns over them, putting out their dim lights I will be right here, right there in the skies of your life. Yes right there and though I am pushed out, blurred out by the garish light of letting go, new people, new memories, a new love I will still be there in your skies, popping out every night and shedding some light. And probably when you look at me in the sky, I will ignite in you a small spark of hope- very little but look at me. Do look at me when you are devastated, broken and weary, I will reappear every night.
Just look at me when I shed some light!
And when the garish light fails you, probably a little, dim light from a star far, far away might bring a smile on your face, if not at least a curve in the corners of your face.
Just look at me
I will be here,
Shedding some light!
Will I?
I think I will…………..
